I remain as I am...
On the other hand if it is destiny to want it as we could oppose it? We can only bother and reject what we are experiencing, but in refusing there is suffering. In acceptance there is peace. Some say they can not simply "observe" the events that flow before their eyes but it is not correct because they are able to describe what they have observed, even if the observation is stained with "prejudice".
In the end things happen, despite everything and beyond our will. Sai Baba of Shirdi said that the only freedom we have is to accept what we are given to live ortry to reject it, it is from this different attitude that the propensity to live a new "karma" arises.
And finally what to choose? There is no scale of values, everything is manifested simultaneously and in the same condition, what we like and what we do not like, what we are in the flesh and what we are in the spirit. Because, as the Buddhists say "the buddha is present in the ten worlds of manifestation, from the underworld to the buddha".Is there a superior ego to be conquered, a lower self to lose? ... There is nothing in truth that "loses", not even the identified ego which is still an aspect of Reality. Therefore, as the vate said: "love your dream even if it torments you!"
P.S. Nisargadatta reports that Siddharameshwar Maharaj, his teacher, told him: "You are the absolute, believe my words and act accordingly", I stood at his words with faith and perseverance and finally realized their truth"